I have always hated my periods. I still remember the first day I got them, I was 13 years old and I screamed the house down as I thought I was bleeding to death. I had never really had them explained to me, so I was completely clueless as to what was going on.
I got use to them, as a girl you kinda of have to. It sucked that I couldn’t go swimming when I wanted to (I wasn’t allowed to use tampons) and I was so sick and had the worst stomach pains. When I was about 16 or 17 my periods would last up to 12-14 days and then 5-6 days later start again. The doctor I was seeing at the time suggested the pill but my mum was a very vocal NO so the doctor suggested some Chinese medicine, I took the tablets and it fixed it I went to 28 days give or take a day or two. I wish I knew what the medicine was as it was a miracle worker.
As I got older the pain stayed and I dealt with it as I was always told it was part of the deal. I would curse those 4-5 days of the month every time, I’d hate my body for what it was doing and the way my emotions went all over the shot.
When I got married I went onto the pill as my husband and I didn’t want kids for a few years, after 5 years I went off the pill as I was told it could take over a year to get out of your system. So after a year we started trying and then 4 months later I was pregnant. Then I had a miscarriage, got very infected from the D&C and bleed for 3 months straight. Then a few months later I had a second miscarriage, thankfully I didn’t get an infection this time but after 2 miscarriages I hated my periods even more because every time I saw blood each month it reminded me of losing those 2 babies and I felt like my body had let me down. I did fall pregnant again a year later and had a healthy baby boy in April 2016. I loved not having my periods while I was pregnant it was one of the only things I enjoyed about being pregnant.
When I stopped breastfeeding after 6 months (not voluntary) it only took 1 month for my periods to return. Thankfully the pain I use to get is gone but they are much shorter now 23-24 days instead of 28-29 days, but I felt the same old hatred rearing its head again. I thought there’s got to be a different way, I cannot stand hating my body every time it’s doing something natural like it’s designed to.
Here’s where the e-book ‘Adore Your Cycle’ enters – I have followed Claire Baker on and off over the years and found her again through a post on Instagram someone posted about the women marching against Trump. Claire talks all things menstrual cycle and more too. But it’s her cycle work that really got me interested. On her Instastories she was doing some daily cycle updates and I found it so fascinating and comforting to know that this is not only a natural thing women’s bodies do but a magical thing (schools never describe it like that – if they describe it at all). I bought her ebook and joined her Adore Your Cycle Facebook group to learn more. I’ll admit it took me a few months after buying the book before I started reading it (thank you stupid depression and anxiety for holding me back) but once I read it, I want to share this book with everyone.
I actually now look forward to my periods, last cycle I even craved for them to come in the few days leading up. I now write my cycle days in my diary so I can planned around them better, I’m noticing when I’m more social and when I’m more withdrawn and I don’t feel guilty over that anymore I honour it actually. It’s helping me to better understand myself and in turn it’s actually helping me to be a better mother and wife because I now know when my moods will be higher and lower, what days are good to plan for catch ups and what days are better to make sure I’ve got little to nothing to do. I’m not crazy, there’s a reason my hormones are the way they are. The concept of seasons is fantastic. In Spring and Summer I’m much more up, productive, social, ready to take on the world. Autumn and Winter I’m more quiet, reserved, pissed off easily, slower. I’ve even been talking to my husband more about it and he has noticed a difference in my attitude towards my periods and it’s been good to tell him what day of my cycle I’m on and it’s helping him know how to interact with me better and understand me.
Thank you Claire for bringing this work to the world, it’s needed so desperately. We need to teach this to girls at the beginning, I wish I had this when I was a teenager. Claire (if you ever read this) I want you to know you are a gift from God given to all of us and thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me to Adore My Cycle xoxo.
To find Claire’s ebook and more click here.
This is not sponsored or anything I just needed to share this great work of hers.
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